Choose?

Lately I've been trying to study Gods word. Now, if you know me you would know that yes I believe Jesus Christ died for our sins and yes, church should be part of a family's weekly schedule. Wow! I've come to realize that I had it all wrong. In studying I've come to realize that in accepting Him as my savior, I'm choosing to follow His plan, not mine. There is no "try to fit in my schedule", it's now His schedule. Now in this, I'm choosing to completely hand over my life to Him, so that He can use me for His plan, again not mine. When you really take a look at this you realize that in His word he refers to us as soldier's (2 Timothy 2:4 And as Christ's soldier, do not let yourself become tied up in the affairs of his life, for then you cannot satisfy the one who has enlisted you in his army). Now, when my brother enlisted and chose to become a Marine (which by the way I'm very proud of him) he made their plan, his plan. It was no longer what he wanted to do. He now belonged to the Marines and he became a part of a bigger plan. He had mission's that they sent him on. They trained him, took care of him, and they were his complete support system and he trusted that and did not question it. They taught him how to not only survive but had a plan to conquer the "enemy". Now being on the outside of the military, I have no training, I virtually do not exist in the military eye's and with that choice I do not know how to survive in a war and if I were to ever have to be in that sort environment would most likely die due to the lack of knowledge on my part. When you join any part of the military arm, there is no question, it's TOTAL commitment, you belong to them. In some sort of way you are now part of something bigger than you are because you believe in what they stand for to the point you will lay down your life. That sort of commitment, total commitment is what God wants. He wants us to be part of His plan. Everything will be provided but the only thing we must do is choose. Choose? Life or death?